Cold.

I'm extremely tired of being so fucking cold all the time. It's only mid-January, so I know I need to just shut the fuck up, but it is really cold here. It's been in the teens all week, we've got icky snow all over the place, and it's just gross out. And I feel gross, because I haven't seen the sunshine in days.

I feel like I'm complaining a lot more than I used to, and that's just not right. I just feel so blah, and while I know that complaining doesn't make things better, it makes me feel a little better.

Also, I hate my job. I feel like I'm constantly under scrutiny, I feel like my manager doesn't trust me, and I'm always assuming the worst. I see my supervisor and my manager in the manager's office with the door closed? I immediately assume I'm getting fired. I am so easily irritated, I'm making stupid ass little mistakes that I would normally never make, and I'm just a mess.

What does one do in this situation? When you just feel sad and depressed all the time, and everyone makes you mad, and you don't look forward to anything? Am I to the point where I should start to look for a mental health professional? Or am I just down in the dumps? Do I need a vacation?

What to do, what to do.