Cold.

I'm extremely tired of being so fucking cold all the time. It's only mid-January, so I know I need to just shut the fuck up, but it is really cold here. It's been in the teens all week, we've got icky snow all over the place, and it's just gross out. And I feel gross, because I haven't seen the sunshine in days.

I feel like I'm complaining a lot more than I used to, and that's just not right. I just feel so blah, and while I know that complaining doesn't make things better, it makes me feel a little better.

Also, I hate my job. I feel like I'm constantly under scrutiny, I feel like my manager doesn't trust me, and I'm always assuming the worst. I see my supervisor and my manager in the manager's office with the door closed? I immediately assume I'm getting fired. I am so easily irritated, I'm making stupid ass little mistakes that I would normally never make, and I'm just a mess.

What does one do in this situation? When you just feel sad and depressed all the time, and everyone makes you mad, and you don't look forward to anything? Am I to the point where I should start to look for a mental health professional? Or am I just down in the dumps? Do I need a vacation?

What to do, what to do.

Already behind schedule

So, I'm already over a week behind schedule on this whole "write a new blog post every day in 2011" thing. Instead of writing something profound and meaningful here, I'm just going to recap the first 9 days of the year...it's sure to be mind boggling.

Jan 1, 2011: Went out for breakfast, then to the grocery store. Purchased turnip & mustard greens, black eyed peas, kielbasa, and cornbread. Ate all of those things for dinner, for good luck. The black eyed peas are for luck with coin money; the greens for paper money. Cornbread is for health, and pork (kielbasa this time) is for prosperity.

Jan 2, 2011: Watched football.

Jan 3, 2011: Back to work after the holiday weekend. Ridiculously busy. Nothing to report.

Jan 4-7th, 2011: Work, work, work.

Jan 8, 2011: Petco and the grocery store. Husband got mad at Petco because some pet portrait place set up their table in such a way that we couldn't get over to the room where the adoptable cats are kept. His whole trip to Petco is ruined if he doesn't get to see the cats.

I made my first curry yesterday, in the crock pot, it was DELICIOUS. As soon as I figure out how to post pictures on here....

Jan 9, 2011...that's today. So far, I've had to go out in the 14 degree weather for Liquid Plumbr because my kitchen sink was backed up. AGAIN. This whole "living on the ground floor" thing has some drawbacks. Like, if the people above me have a tendency to run shit through their garbage disposals that doesn't go down, it clogs down here at the bottom of the building, and I get the flooded kitchen.

I'm watching football and eating leftover curry. We're having breakfast for dinner tonight: pancakes. Had I known Jimmy had that idea in his head, I'd have gotten some bacon or sausage at the store while I was buying the drain cleaner.

Oh, and I had pumpkin pie for breakfast.